After a few weeks of driving myself crazy thinking about it - back and forth and back and forth (that's just how I roll), I finally made the decision and dropped out of Honu 70.3. Today was the deadline to withdraw from the race and get a refund of a relatively small portion of the race registration fee.
I know it would be a great experience - a trip to Hawai'i with good friends, racing alongside (or somewhere far behind) Lance Armstrong, checking out sections of the Ironman World Championship course, etc. etc. The problem is that I just haven't been able to find my cycling or swimming mojo this year. It started right from the beginning of the year - check out what I wrote in late January about my swim and bike training - and unfortunately I wasn't able to turn it around.
I know I'm not going to find it in the next 40-or-so days before the race. A few weeks ago, I told myself that I still had ten weeks to go and if I could put together some good bike and swim training weeks, that would be enough to go out and have a decent race. But I haven't done it - at all. And with the race looming over my head and I felt obligated to get on the bike or in the pool which caused training to be much more stressful than fun. And if it's not fun at least most of the time, there's no point in doing it.
So I bailed. And I'm sure I'll feel better about it soon. :)
For now, I'm going to continue logging good miles on my feet, mostly on the trails. The nice thing is that my running feels like it's mostly back after a rough mental recovery from the LA Marathon. And I'm going to get out for some good, fun non-obligatory bike rides and swims. And maybe I'll even get back to regular blogging.
But with the deletion of Honu, I have nothing on the race schedule until SOS in September. I'm gonna fix that soon because, despite the stress that Honu was causing me, I know that Josh-with-a-race-schedule is generally happier than Josh-without. I'm not sure what or where I'll be racing, but I can guarantee you it won't involve swimming or cycling!